we were meant to be

It seemed it all was ment to be, us was ment to be. We had known each other since we where kids, but we never where togheter in any kind of way, years go by and he had a girlfriend and I had a boyfriend, two long relationships that ended in the right time. One day we ran into each other, there was a strange feeling, I was single and I suddenly started to notice him and he noticed me as well.

We started dating so instantly, I was thinking about him all day long, after many, many years I found myself falling for someone that wasn´t my ex and not just that, the best part was that he seemed to be a person that was really wort to fall for. Suddenly we were already boyfriend and girlfriend. It all happened really fast, but it was magical, I wasn’t sure at the beginning, I had just ended a really long and sick relationship and I was already in another one, but somehow it just felt right, so I decided not to be afraid, it wasn’t easy and he had to fought all my monsters and fears. After a while I started to believe in him, I started to believe that he will never hurt me and we had the greatest relationship ever, my friends and his friends were always telling us how happy we seemed and how good we were togheter. It was just perfect, until one day it wasn’t anymore.

¿Es que realmente no eres para mi?

Cerrando los ojos, hoy ya no veo nada y aveces, a solas me dejo llevar por ti...pero luego pienso y creo que no eres para mi... pues las mentiras se llevan los ideales que he construido junto a ti.

Te deje pasar, me había prometido que no te dejaría ir, me siento parte de ti, soñando que nuestro destino será la felicidad, pero luego me siento atrapada, casi obligada a sentir la felicidad, me siento parte de ti, pero absorbida en tu perfecta gentileza , me siento parte de ti con esa mirada que me recogió de la soledad y me prometió que podría estar junto a mi, porque estaba segura que en ti estaba todo lo que pude o no desear, pero es precisamente eso lo que ahora ya no esta... y yo deseando amarte, pero en la duda de mi amor por ti... Por primera vez siento que tu no podrás tapar mi desesperación, parece que no eres tan perfecto como creí, de hecho, quizá no eres tan fiel, tan compresivo, quizá sólo proyectas esa imagen de sensibilidad, de comprensión hacia mi... quizá deba irme, porque si me quedo quizá me quede en espera de esa felicidad, quizá realmente no eres para mi...