Lastima...

lastima... lastima por mi... porque que me cuesta tanto creerte, lastima que no tengo la capacidad de entenderte cuando me dices que soy yo... que te complemento en todos los aspectos, que soy yo lo que siempre buscaste en tantos rincones, y tan solo tenias que voltear enfrente... que soy yo la persona que despierta tu pasión, que soy con lo que por años soñaste... lastima que tenga miedo de escucharte decir "te amo"... que lastima... que palabras tan hermosas sean las que menos quiero escucharte decir y al mismo tiempo... al escucharlas, me hagan tan feliz y sentir de la manera mas extraña... no lo puedo describir, que siento mi cuerpo vibrar... algo tan dentro de mi y tan grande... un sentimiento imparable, soy demasiado chiquita como para encerrarlo, es imposible, es mas grande que yo... lastima que me aterre pensar que un día olvidaras esas palabras y prefieras partir... lastima que mis demonios no me dejen expresar lo que por ti siento, que es tan grande como lo que tu dices sentir... tal vez mas... lastima que sea tan débil que me hago dudar... lastima por mi...

Earl Grey, the new wake up call...

Open my eyes... 4:55 am... s#*t! it's late!! i had to catch my work-bus right at that time!! There's no more buses until six in the morning and at that time i have to be already standing in the restaurant... i ran to the bus stop but it was a minute to late... it was still night, i sat on the sidewalk praying for a bus that will not pass by... a sub was parked a few feet away and after a minute or two a young man goes out of it, he approached to me and asked if he could keep me company while i wait. Truly, i was scared but he looked decent and i was more worried about my delay than anything else... so i said yes... everytime a stranger asks for my name i say Natalie, and so i did. We started talking... but i was curious, he never offered to drive me to my work, i mean, any other man at 5:45 in the morning would, but he didn't he was just talking about this bar he owned near by that was the reason he was parked there... i was so desperate to get to work that i asked him to take me, but he said he was to tired and offered to pay for a taxi to drive me there! I didn't knew what to say, i mean a taxi will charge 50 dollars... it's a lot for a girl you just meet who couldn't catch her bus, but i really, really was desperate so i agreed... i know! I should say no and i think God knew about it so... suddenly... a bus! It wasn't my work-bus but it was a bus that approaches me to my work... I thanked him and left... on the bus i was falling sleep! of course i haven't slept more than 3 hours i was exhausted and late! I arrived 6:30am to the restaurant, grateful that my manager wasn't there yet, but i hardly could stay awake and i knew a coffee was not the solution, i mean is pleasant but it has no effect on me since my mother gave me one cup every morning since i was eight... A cup of tea! A cup of earl grey tea with a splash of milk! Delightful, pleasant and awakening! I'm sayig a cup of earl grey tea with a splash of milk is the new wake up call... well, it didn't wake me at 4:15am, or keep me from getting late, but it did keep me awake for the rest of my shift :)